A Self-Beating

I feel stuck.

Today versus even a few months ago, and things are so different. There has been alot of growth. But sometimes when I sit down and stop racing with the world... it feels like it's all the same.
Some things have changed. But they just bring new editions of old problems.

Good Girl
Always felt like I had one foot out the circle. Had everyone's respect but sometimes it seemed like I looked so one-dimensional. Being good meant so much was private and bloom-locked.

Eventually I decided that I could be good and have character. All colour has come to life since.

But then now there are new issues. Sometimes I'm up on a pedestal. Sometimes I'm the dirt on your shoe. Sometimes I'm invisible.


In-Between
Stupid. Me. Brilliant.
Thin. Me. Fat.
Selfless. Me. Selfish.
Artistic. Me. Practical.
Nerd. Me. Partyanimal.
Reserved. Me. Open.
Nonchalant. Me. Worrywart.
Homely. Me. Adventurer.
Girly. Me. Tomboyish.

To top it off, I feel stupid for thinking these are things that should bother me.